It's so great that the hospitalization helped. Sorry for the side effects glad to hear they are diminishing. to psych central. Lots of us here have been though similar stuff. There's been times when side effects have been bad including leg tremors and tar dia like symptoms thankfully they went away with time. I too felt much older as well as looked older after an intense episode but sleep and time helped. Living alone can be great but it's scary when your dealing with an illness. I used to live alone, for almost 20 yrs so I know how vulnerable it can feel. Take care.