I have posted here before about my longterm correspondence with my high school sweetheart. We have corresponded via email for over 10 years, but when he was visiting here in WV during the fall, I declined to see him, telling him it would be detrimental to my emotional health for a person-to-person visit, since our last to such visits were romantic in nature, with kissing and such, thus, taking me a long time to get back to normal in my thinking. He's "happily married" and I have been respectful fo that, receiving emails of his trips with his wife, etc. Still, I had become dependent on hearing from him. In his next to last email, he said I had "hurt his feelings" by not seeing him. Then, with the death of my mother, which I wrote to him about, he sent a curt condolence, and no more messages, though I sent him an email afterwards. I'm sad. I dare not write to him again, receiving no response...too humiliating!, but our communication over the many years has been so meaningful and fulfilling to me.
I realize I have relied on our communication to fill the void of a relationship in my life! Sad, isn't it!
Patty
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