It's just.... I don't know. She didn't really seem to be hearing me last night... and after I'd told her over the summer that I wanted to terminate this month she'd initially agreed to it but then we had that fight/rupture and I quit via email but felt so terrible I went back to work through it and yes we did some good work since then and I'm so grateful to her overall because I have made so much progress in myself and many very positive changes in my life working with her but dang it, every time I feel strong enough to leave and want to end she'll say things like she doesn't even hear me or we get in some stupid fight. I'm feeling more and more that I'm not going back. That whatever her game is it isn't as innocent as she puts on and I need to get the f out. The reminscing I did last night with her, to me sounded like a goodbye speech, but she didn't hear it that way. Or pretended she didn't. Or something. Anyway.

What did you see? I'm very interested.