yeah...its...somewhat complicated, I suppose. On the one hand, I do better w/ the abilify and some counseling than I did w/o the abilify. On the other hand, "recovery" is something that is achieved on -their- terms. One must always stay on meds, indefinitely, forever and ever, amen.

it doesn't help that the clinic i go to is so gung ho about the medical model. I'm one of the few "clients" there in long term counseling. I don't go in often--every 8 weeks or so, whatever disability will (thankfully...) cover--but...they try to get people out of counseling and into med management ASAP. ugh.

i dont know what to make of it, honestly. I"m kind of thinking that if they want me to drop counseling and just do med management, I'll try to transition over to a family doctor. I'm not "high needs" or "high risk," plus I don't take any controlled substances or a complicated cocktail, so...why not?