This resonates with me. For me, it's hard to have a normal conversation with someone because there's so much stuff that's been happening in my life but no one knows about it and it's the only thing that I could possibly talk about. We had a team-building thing at work the other day and someone asked me if I had plans for Thanksgiving. I said I didn't have any plans, but I wanted to blurt out "I just sent my husband to prison". I'm glad I didn't. That would have been awkward.

I've also had the experience of being too overwhelming for someone. I met a woman in a DV group. She was about 4 years out of her abusive relationship, but I was smack in the middle of mine. She offered to be a support for me and I opened up to her because I needed that. There was a lot of stuff happening for me almost daily at the time and I would tell her about it. I could see that I was triggering her and that it was distressing for her to hear what I was telling her, but I needed to talk and I did. Eventually, she just disappeared on me. It hurt quite a lot. I felt like a real asshole for telling her the stuff I was telling her. So I get feeling like a leper. It makes you so hesitant to open up to anyone else.

I would talk to your therapist about these feelings. I don't think it's shameful or needy to want people in your life. If I didn't talk about stuff I find shameful in therapy, I'd have nothing to talk about.