Hello all. I'm new to this page and fairly new to therapy. I have tried it in the past, but i never felt comfortable enough to stick with it. Maybe I'd start feeling better, and I'd stop, or I didn't click with the therapist. I'd often find myself talking about nothing of any importance, and I'd just stop going. Why waste my time or theirs? I don't think I've ever stuck with anyone longer than a few sessions.

After a few years of marital issues and finding myself pretty much crying daily and depressed, I got a prescription from my doctor for an antidepressant, and started therapy again. I've been with her for about 6 months and it's the first time I've ever felt connected to a therapist, and felt like i could really talk and open up.

Only now I'm having troubles opening up to her at all. i know I'm experiencing transference. That came out of the blue and hit me like a ton of bricks. I never knew such a thing existed before. Now I wonder if that has influenced my ability to open up. Besides this, I'm feeling better. I don't want to stop therapy, but I also feel guilty because I'm too old to need this (should I have it together by now? I'm in my late 40s), or because my problems aren't big enough/important enough (some people have it worse). Maybe I'm not feeling blue enough, and of course, what started me on this path is not going to go away any time soon. How long can i struggle with a problem and not do anything to change my situation?

I haven't told her this, because for whatever reason, lately I clam up whenever I see her.

Anyways, I guess I'm looking to see if other people have had the same or similar thoughts, and how you handled them.