Hey ruby, seems like you're feeling pretty alone... I don't know the back story but I'm sort of surprised about all the criticism you're receiving here, just in principle for a support forum.

For whatever reason you're experiencing this, clearly it's not an enjoyable thing to experience. I think sometimes even when you feel like you're being treated unfairly, the functional truth is that it keeps happening so it's important to put some serious consideration into the feedback you're getting. Maybe part of it is about showing some empathy to yourself, maybe you are wishing people would respect you more than deep down you are really respecting yourself. It seems like you're feeling like you don't have a lot of worth to others and maybe part of you is feeling really hurt or depressed about that. A lot of times it can be easy to depend on others to mirror a belief or a sense of self-worth that you struggle to validate internally for yourself, but that can make other people feel kind of used, too. Anyway, the way they are treating you is not the be-all end-all determinant of your worth, rather it's just feedback of how you have come off to others at certain times in the past and present. It's feedback on what you're doing, not who you are. Who you fundamentally are is someone who can grow and change and learn from these experiences to eventually have happier relationships. Nothing is set in stone here!