I don't know if anyone else has ever done this. I'm almost positive they have. I can't be the only one.

I will be talking with someone and I can easily convince myself they are mad at me n feel guilt - yet at the same time feel doubt they are mad at me. I go away feeling miserable til the person either yells at me or massively reassures me.

Here recently though - its been happening a lot. Almost everyone I care about.

This too is in part why I want to die...or is it an effect of that? I don't know anymore - but I don't care either.