Molinit, maybe you're right.
I probably won't get anything else from him.
But this is not about my ego. I understand we're all different, but I can't see how could he treat me the way he did without a spark. I refuse to believe that he's been lying all this time.

I guess I need to focus on my healing now.
Honestly I can't recognise myself.
Managed to sleep couple of hours this night, had the strangest dream of two dogs. One was huge, the other was chihuahua. Little dog was trying to play with the big one, but the big one couldn't even see it. Just wasn't in his eyesight. I don't want to be chihuahua!

I'll see my counsellor tomorrow.