I find it easier to relax my desire to push for knowledge since I succeeded in figuring something out once that hurt me bad. I wasn’t ready for it. That experience stung so bad that it is a reminder to allow things to develop in pace with my strength. I had to trust Sire (the part involved in this case) that if he was being secretive about something that it was in my best interest. He is, after all, a protector. My t has helped me with this too. She says when it’s time to dig into those things I will know, because neither I or the parts involved will be afraid of doing so. She also said we will all be able to help each other and work as a team in it. I’m glad she told me that.