Hey everyone...

So I just wanted to say I managed to talk to another T and discuss how I really felt about his comment .

It was... interesting. It's times like these that I like this other T more, but she's only around for 4 more months, so I kinda don't want to switch just for things to end. Make sense?

Anyways... she got me to see that she thought he didn't mean "distant" but that I had trouble identifying the emotions when I go through them. That when people ask me how I'm feeling, that it really isn't indepth, and that I can't identify past emotions for important events. Like that part of me is cut off from the rest of me. I guess I'm the kind of person to not think about where I'm at emotionally, but do what needs to be done (like cry) and then put a lid on the feelings and ignore them until they go away. Not the same as the rest of my family though... they're distant, and extreme emotional bottlers.

She also got me to see that maybe my hating T and not wanting to go back was part of my control issues again and recognize it's part of my pattern to try to distance myself from people if they get too close.

She's going to talk to me for another half an hour tomorrow about my problems with "emotions" and I'll see how that goes.

Thanks ((((((((((everyone))))))))))) for your support.