Alice, I think it's perfectly understandable that you are seeking other answers, because he surprise attacked you with this. You had traveled with him before, and thought he was happy and that you were happy together. You must have thought a spark existed and that there was compatibility. So for him to surprise you like that and to tell you the opposite seemingly out of the blue, well, I would be seeking answers too. I would be wondering, what the hell just happened???? So I think your confusion is understandable.