I am not doing well. I have apathy from my schizoaffective disorder. I am just sleeping all day. I will try to go out tomorrow. I have to teach a class in the evening. I am so tired though. I am all alone and tired of living. But, I will survive. Life is not bad but not great. I was hypomanic the previous day and was impulsive about meeting strange men for sex. But, I stopped myself from meeting them for just sex. I did meet one elderly man who was nice to me and was a gentleman. I was moved by his behavior. I like him now. He is very wealthy too.But, his money is not my issue but he likes talking about his wealth so I listened. This was yesterday and today I just slept like a log. I also was up very early yesterday to teach two students then I went online to look for men. This was not a good idea but I had the chance to meet this elderly man so may be it turned out ok. This elderly man is not really that elderly. He is about 10 years older than I am. He is nice and decent. He did not want sex. I hope we meet again. I am going to try to stay away from meeting men just for sex. It is dangerous and not safe.