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Originally Posted by healingme4me
It's quite possible that he does feel this way about you too. Yet, at the same time, with 2 kids in diapers and one still nursing or with a bottle, there's not much that can really be acted upon.
My own three are slightly closer in age range than yours are, not by much so I'm thinking back to that time in my own life as it's about a decade in age difference now. I was going through some health issues when my youngest was about that age. Depression was on the diagnosis table. Turned out to be a neurological illness which is in remission but the isolation I can most definitely relate to.
It's important to not lose sight of the momentous life alterinh changes that you've just experienced.
If your husband's only flaw is that you aren't feeling connected to him it could just be what you yourself are going through and it's worth talking about your fears about the changes to your relationship. He could be oblivious that you feel like you don't matter. If there's more to him in a negative way then it could be symptomatic of a lingering problem between you. Of which it's important to realize your own vulnerabilities.
I would certainly suggest to wait before making any rash life altering decisions. But know you know and recognize the weakspot of your marriage. It's like playing chess, it really is, life that is. Be cautious of any checkmate scenarios.
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Sorry I didn't respond last night, I cried when I saw what you wrote and I agree.
I'm sorry to hear about all of your troubles, but I'm glad to hear they are in remission.
There are alot of things going on in our relationship. Some are harder than others..
And I know that this is absolutely insane, but I want to sleep with that guy. I know it's wrong to even think about it. But I can't help it. He made me feel so alive and like I have worth. It doesn't help that he's got an amazing accent and body.
But I definitely agree that I shouldn't act on anything. Luckily, he's completely unreachable. And I don't think he felt the same way I did.
I feel horrible for feeling like this, but I feel so pushed into a corner with my family and my marriage. I simply take care of the kids and house and that's where I end. I don't matter beyond that. So if I keep up with my job, I go unnoticed, however if I have a bad day and slack on the house work, I'm noticed but not in the way that I want. Not that my husband yells about it.. but it's clear he is not happy..
And that's it. It's like I was made to be their maid and that's it. Is it bad that I want more for me? Shouldn't I be more concerned with the happiness of my children? Shouldn't I just stay with my unhappy marriage for my kids?