There's so much here I can relate to! The craving. The overwhelming feeling of a tired life.
I understand this on many levels.

I have dug deeper into my religious background & upbringing. Changed my narrow views & feel much more comfortable thinking about & researching the next wrinkle of "time" that is approaching. I look forward to it!

So many see death as a linear plane, a finish line. I see so much more.
Everyday it's there to greet me. Waiting. So not fair.