I have been gone from here----too long.I had to hide,the last time I was.My family was torturing me----i dont exagerate.
I have been homeless-last summer----choosing that,rather then get abused,again--after leaving the place--it was toomuch to stay at.It was my home---but left--and lost,alli worked for,30 years.---now have many readers,who support me as a person.www.myspace.com/darapage
I have been continuing,my writing & activism.
yet also have been,put on bed-rest--20 weeks ago.
i cant get better.I run from my past--alone
no good mental help--in this so called,healing town.
I lived here-10 years,before-
and gave so much,now get so little.because i'm disabled & poor.So I push myself,helping others & trying to make a store,on ebay---so i am not broke,3 weeks out of the month.After rent,bills & a few candles ETC. I became a buddhist--in sept.but dont have any Buddhist support,except--for good souls online.Even the buddhist's here--are phony yuppy types.
so im broken down-confused--trying to get myself well
as by myself--53 I look younger,so what.
i have lived without a husband-18 years.NOT LOOKING.
just need people,who understand--what i'm feeling & how hard it is--to get beyond it-maybe never-
im scared & alone.Even tho my daughter helps,she cant fix this.I dont even know---if i can-be fixed-
meds dont help.weed does a little.just being honest.thax for looking-if ya do.-d