I haven't been here for a while, so hugs to all that need them.

Despite two nerve blocks in the lumbar area I'm still having a lot of lower back pain. The right side has been kick for three weeks now. The doc I saw gave me naproxen (that doesn't work) and Tramadol (that I can't take because I have sleep apnea and don't want to stop breathing). So basically having to lie down a lot because every other position hurts. I won't see my pain management doc until the end of the month. I still have to do house stuff while everybody else is doing schoolwork, so I don't know if I'll get a break anytime soon.

I've been in a low-grade depression since August. I see my pnurse Tuesday but I don't know what to tell her. It might be the chronic pain, or the increasing darkness, or something. I just don't want to change my meds to something that can wreck my liver. I can ask for an AD but may not get that either. My mood goes to hell this time of year anyway. I'm not suicidal so don't need an intervention, but I don't know what will help.

Thankfully we have bought most of the Christmas presents so we can coast into the New Year. Just need to get a couple of small things for my daughter's boyfriend. It would be nice if he had more than one gift under the tree. Hopefully my mood picks up by Thanksgiving though my daughter is working that day. She decided to quit her job after Black Friday--a lot of good people are leaving due to bad management and she doesn't want to deal with all the BS anymore. Her boyfriend has a job lined up for her where he works. She's taking a month off to finish this term and take a break. I wouldn't blame her for that.

So that's current life in a nutshell. Off to give dinner to the cats. My cat is rubbing up against the back of my head to entice me to feed her.