What did you gain from fainting all the time that you serm to be missing now? Is there something more thsn just size that starving yourself gained?

I always wanted to be small & thin all my life but my anorexia was about a lot more than that. It was about my life around me being out of ckntrol & my weight was the ONLY thing I had control over. Mant other complex issues were involved too that I honestly didnt realuze for years after my recovery hit becaise I was finally alone on my farm & responsible for being in control of everything in my life.....not just what I didnt eat.