I didn't know you had previously been in a shelter because of the same person.

pegasus is rightly concerned if this is what has driven you to your current thoughts. I have to ask. What would you ask and advise of someone else on these forums who had presented what you have? Truly. Objectively. (That's not a loaded question. And I don't expect you to answer me.)

I don't want to push too hard, but we are very concerned about your plight and we do care. You know I have a lot of respect for you and your insight. But even the most wonderful person in the world might be horribly wrong for you.

I'm sorry. I'm out of my depth here. But no one deserves to live like this, and I hope you find some way. It is your life and your decision.

We are here for you regardless.