Had that happen before, the last group of us doing the life thing pushed to try to get past things that were being withheld... came back to bite us and then some. This group of us now, we try to remember that when we get to wanting to 'poke things with sticks'. I happen to be more than guilty of trying to poke when I should be leaving things alone... wanting to know/understand/whatever now. Meh. Patience does not come easy for me.

But yeah, I certainly have at least one protector type I don't have a solid handle on... he just does what he does and covers what he covers. No clue what that is, maybe it is just shutting us down when we get to trying to move forward too fast. I dunno. He's been around for, gees, I dunno, a long time (since we were maybe two or three?) and none of us now ever had a handle on what all he's about or has talked to him or anything. We had one protector in the last group of us who was really good at starting up co con and she never did figure out how to reach him. He could shut her down as well.

Most I know of him is he's like an internal filter and he can 'pull' from whoever he wants... he can make me (and me as a whole) go from having some huge aha moment to not knowing what I was thinking about and then I'm off making a sandwich or something like nothing just happened. It's not just me he can do this to, I think he can do this to all of us who are here and doing life now. Yeah, he shuts down, redirects, removes, numbs out, whatever. He does a lot of 'taking'. It's really disorienting when stuff like that happens... to me anyhow. Frustrating to, but that prolly goes back to me and my lack of patience and need to know, you know?

a/v