Exactly. I'll go through spells when I'll isolate for a few months, not going out or answering the phone. Many times folks I've established friendships with give up on me, & when I emerge from isolation I'm too embarrassed to reestablish contact with those people. There have also been times when I've been on the opposite side of the spectrum & been too wild & out of character. I think this can scare people away, too. Then, & this is a big one, I used to drink to self-medicate & made an arse out of myself more times than I care to think about. I haven't had a drink in many years now & have become more stable on the manic end, but my depressed isolation remains a problem.