Well my brother was my mums blue eyed boy. I was star pupil for first half of my education. So when I did do something wrong it was amplified twice as much and re-enforced. I spent my childhood ruminating over my flaws. But we all do I guess.

My mum would boast and brag about my brother all the time because he was great at golf and did have real potential. Yet, my brother had to get his nan to pay his yearly golf fee's. My parents could easily have afforded it if they did not spend so much time in the pub. So, they wouldn't even set up a direct debit for me but they could pay nearly a hundred pound monthly for sky t.v. that my mum never barely watched. I feel so embarrassed right now, but now I see why I quit the club and moved in with friends. If my parents couldn't even pay a direct debit to something that had kept me off the streets, during high school what were the chances they would help me out at college or university? They wouldn't.