Hello everyone. Thank you again for your input, advice, and encouragement.

I prayed yesterday for a sign of whether I should stay and try to go through counseling, or whether to just leave and save my sanity and protect my daughter. I got my answer last night.

He interrogated me for nearly 30 minutes last night, trying to find out if I was lying to him about the last time I masturbated and why I don't want to do anything with him. He told me (in a roundabout way, without ever explicitly stating the words so he could later say "I never said that!") that I am untrustworthy, he cannot believe what I say, and that I usually remember things incorrectly. He told me I treat him like ****, after admitting that he deliberately went snooping again and read my diary (apparently the passcode was removed on my old phone when I switched to my new phone).

I realized last night that it doesn't matter how much counseling we do. He will never trust me. He will never believe what I say. He will always suspect me of wrongdoings. He will always twist my words to make himself out to be the victim. He will never respect any personal boundaries I have. He will always go snooping. He will always believe the worst of me.

I don't want this life. I don't want this for myself, or for my daughter.

I'm done.