I met one of my pals on a night out and she would not speak to me because she had just lost her job. She was obviously upset and didn't feel up to acting.
She asked me to hold her wine and coat for a second until she could think of how to escape and It clicked with me and I let her be.
By this point Its safe to say I only had a boyfriend going for me. Dearly devoted Fred. He went on Holiday with his friends from what he told me, were egging him on to cheat on me and pull in the night clubs. I thought that this was their way of saying that I was just a lost cause now.
They weren't the only ones who had reached this conclusion. Top of the list: My own parents. An ex-teacher tried to help and asked my brother to asked me if I would like my art work from school. I thought that they just wanted rid of it and I said I do not want it, just bin it. I said this because I thought they wanted nothing in connection with me. I felt like I had jail bait tattooed on my fore head