All the advise on mental health stipulates that you have force yourself to do things like exercise. But you cannot fight the natural progression of mental illness. If you have very little energy, it won't come back over-night.

You are depressed for a reason and carrying on as normal just won't work. Sometimes it just isn't possible to face the day. You have to let yourself be broken. Something needs to be repaired. It is like a physical illness, and you have to cut things out of your life for as long as the head needs you to.

I remember my doctor saying after another of our sessions that there is light at the end of the tunnel but it was like she was responding to my tenacity rather than her own advice. Why should I settle for less? She seemed quite weary with her work if I must say. She asked me about my earliest memory while I was an in-patient and I did not answer. This was my business, and there was no way I would take anything to do with the social services. It would be like going from the frying pan and into the fire.