I am having trouble getting out of the mode of losing weight too fast. I was (and I guess I still am, somewhere deep inside) a binge eater and I gained a fair amount of weight; up to a little over 60 pounds overweight (which actually is in the obese range). I know that isn't as bad as it would be, but I yoyo in an unhealthy manner.

I finally decided I had enough and managed to flip the switch to the other extreme. I started averaging about 900 calories a day and lost 32 pounds in 65 days. I finally admitted I have a problem about a week ago and committed to up my calories to a more normal level. I am trying to do it in steps and the first step was to get over 1200 each day (still sort of extreme for an adult male). Yesterday, I ate a little under 1000. I am largely cutting out starch to try a diet specific to a type of arthritis I have and I don't eat mammal meat, so I do have to get a little creative to up calories. i do it mostly by eating fruit and if i am short at the end of the day I can take almond butter like medicine. But last night I could not get myself to do it. I am obsessed with seeing the scale move before I make an adjustment.

This is not my first cycle. I have gained, lost and gained back 60 pounds before. I have done it in the 25 pound range several times. I am hopeful that I can make some changes to stay at a healthy weight. This time does feel different somehow. But first I have to convince myself to lose more slowly in a healthy way. I want to shoot for January when i should be shooting for June.