The mixed state is by far the most challenging for me. When I'm in these types of states, everything can bother me. A sound, the feel of the wind, the way my socks fit, even gravity seems to piss me off.

I am unstable, irritable, aggressive. At the same time, depressed, pessimistic, and dark. It's a terrible combination that typically makes me feel like I'm breaking apart, or falling apart at the seams.

Definitely talk with your p-doc about this. Especially since you're changing meds. I wish you the best of luck and hope you feel better soon.