It's so hard to distinguish between what's a symptom and what are the side effects of meds; I suspect it's some of both.

I know that I can't do what I used to be able to do before meds, so I think in my case it's the meds because, especially when hypo, I could do my job better than normal, better than ok, I was superhuman (I'm an interpreter which requires an incredible memory and very fast thinking). I used to be so good at it, even at baseline, before meds, I was much better than I am now. It hurts my self esteem, it makes me feel badly about myself. Hate it...