I'm always super distant but more and more recently I feel like I cannot live another second before I burst or implode. I feel this pressure inside me constricting me and swelling form my core to just under my skin, hard and heavy, squeezing out every now and then when I lose it and break down but sitll remaining. It numbs me, it eats up my emotions and with every disappointment or anxiety i experience, the ringing in my ears gets louder and the pressure worsens. I dont even know if this fits in the anxiety forum but I've had GAD for a lot of my life among other things. So I dont know if its connected but I'm freaking out because I just want to know whats wrong with me and every time I want to be present and experience my emotions I feel like a freaking balloon flying away from myself.