I'm pretty scared and have been uneasy for the past two weeks.

Long story short, T and I talked about taking a personality test, the big one MMPI-2.

Well, what a whirlwind of emotions and defensiveness I had as I was answering the true/false questions.

Also, I was paranoid about the prior therapy session and I think that influenced me when I answered questions.

Anyway, it didn't come back good at all. I was quite shocked actually because many of my answers threw me into the antisocial/paranoid category.

T was going over point by point in such a clinical and matter of fact way that it scared me.

He seemed to take it personal too that I answered 'trust no one' and other stuff.

I faxed him a letter and explained my feelings about the test and our work. I feel like so much is about to change and we were just using this for informational purposes he said.

He did say if he was diagnosing me which he isn't he'd go with Borderline. He did try to make me feel a bit better about some of it but when I tried to explain why I answered a certain way he'd say well that is antisocial or whatever.

It wasn't in my mind, antisocial to me is criminals or abusers etc. I am none of those things. He said I showed high rebellion, defensiveness and behaviors outside of the social norm.

That hurt me because when we've talked about those behaviors he has always tried to get me to see the beautiful side to them.

My fax explained all of this and I didn't expect him to call. Why do I feel like a therapy contract is coming my way?

Or, am I being paranoid?