Thanks for your response. I kept thinking about this over the last day. Looking over the conversation again now, I want to clarify that when I said "That's not a loaded question.", I meant I wasn't presuming there to be a correct answer. And that you only should only feel like answering here if it helps you sort through things.

As usual, you gave a considered response -- which I did appreciate and understand. I may still worry a little. Sorry about that, it's not very productive I know. I don't mean to push advice on you. And the last thing I want to do is make you feel misunderstood and isolated.

I'm sure you know all this, because I've said it (and similar) before. But I don't think it hurts to say it again, along with the fact that you do mean something to a lot of people here, including me.

Take care.