Alisa.. firstly, I'm so sorry you're going through all this
I can understand how you're feeling as my bipolar boyfriend left me just a week ago.
I've seen my therapist today, and it was the best decision I've made in ages.
I can see you're over-sensitive and I can understand why.
I'm sure everyone here mean well and they're trying to help. I'll give it a go as well.

I would strongly suggest you just to have some time for yourself and think about your wishes, needs, focus on what makes you happy. I'm sure you deserve good things, not abuse. No one deserves abuse!
I don't know much about bipolar disorder myself, but I'm learning because I want to understand.
But from what I know, I'm almost sure he's aware of everything he's doing and saying.

Please don't think about my post as negative or judgemental, all I'm saying is try to put yourself first.

Best wishes