Perhaps it'll be helpful to add onto to your "I want to die" thought process? So instead, try thinking, "I want to die, but I'll probably be okay tomorrow, I want die, but I'll probably be okay tomorrow," and then just try focusing on the "I'll be okay tomorrow," part. I know it's rough, been there myself, but I like to admit that it's okay to feel like you want to die, but I also know that on most occasions I really will feel differently tomorrow. That's sort of the blessing that comes with being bipolar: your thoughts and feelings really won't stay like that forever. /hugs/ Hang in there!