Reading your other posts you have been psychotic for a great long period of time/years of your child hood, etc.
Please print out every thing you have written on these 2 different forums and take them with you to your psych visit for the first time, hoping that you can be seen in short order.
Medication can be wonders for delusional thinking and you could perhaps be able to go back to college again.
keep us posted,
bizi