I think I'm at a point in my life. I don't want to go anywhere, anymore. I don't want to do anything I don't have to. I don't want to see anyone. I don't want to talk.

Until today, I've been forcing myself. I go out with my friends because they need someone to talk to and I can usually get them to smile and laugh. I go to therapy because my friend would probably stop going if I did. I take meds (haven't been doing great in that area, to be honest) to keep people from worrying. I eat food for the same reason, even though I don't care to eat, anymore. I also eat because my friend has anorexia and I try to get her to eat a little bit.

I just don't want to "fight" anymore. I'm tired of trying. I can't help anyone, anyway. Who was I to think that I could?

They've given up. Why can't I?

(Not about anyone on PC)