Yes, only once. He was much older than me and struggled with alcohol abuse (he is still struggling). I was going to varsity the next year and I didn't see us panning out at all. I didn't want to have to rescue the victim for the rest of my life, especially not while at school.

In every other relationship though, there are always moments when I want to end it because something went wrong but then I doubt myself and re-establish the relationship. In some cases, they were big wrongs and I would have been better off and less hurt had I stayed broken up with those people (I doubted and underreacted where I shouldn't have). In two cases, so far, the wrongs were minor things that I should have let slide and would have been much happier for it still being in the relationship with those people (I doubted and overreacted where I shouldn't have).

I have gained much experience but I still find it very difficult to judge when to act in which way. When I defend I shouldn't have and the other person gets hurt, and when I don't defend I should have and I get hurt. (When I talk about hurt I don't mean the little everyday hurts that occur often, I mean serious traumatizing hurt.)

As for whether I have ever been with someone as "crazy" as me? No, I've never been able to find another person that I fully relate to. I think I'd give my right arm for such a person to exist.