I've been muting a classmate on WhatsApp for the last two weeks. She's the only one that's kind of close to me and cares for me back at the place where I'm studying.
And yet, when I interrupted my studies three days ago and left to live back at my parents' for a bit, I didn't message her. I've been in this exact same position a year ago. I'm so afraid that people see me as the failure that I am, that they realise that I'm fundamentally broken.
She won't understand. She'll only see that I didn't make it once again, that I only manage to study for five months over the course of a year and failed half the courses during that time, despite my talents. I can't deal with this, I'd rather just break contact and never return again. There's nothing left there holding me anyway.