I am great at getting with the wrong type of people. My last relationship was with someone who has NPD and I was with him for 6 years. We went through tons of break ups and getting back together. It was always me who did the ending of the relationship. Deep down I always knew the relationship was terrible for me but I was just so drawn to him. We clicked. Regardless of all the bull he put me through I just kept dealing with it because I wanted to keep him. I thought things would get better and they never did. We would go through periods where things were great.Then others he blamed me for every single thing you could imagine. I was never good enough. I allowed him to manipulate me and to mess with my mind to the point that I am still coping with it. I was diagnosed with the BPD during this relationship and I would question myself constantly if it was me over reacting and taking things the wrong way. He would make me feel like it was me or like I was crazy more or less. It was a roller coaster.
Before him I had a husband who was good to me. I just didn't see it. We had a lot of rough patches and I blamed him for everything that went wrong. I didn't treat him very good. I could of been a better wife. Much better. I left him for less. He treated me golden. We had issues like any couple would the problem was how I handled them. In a messed up way me winding up with the guy with NPD was almost like karma on me for how I had treated my husband. After the break up with the guy with NPD the husband was the one who was there to pick up the pieces and let me move back in with him. We are now working to see if we can be back in a relationship. I sit back thinking to the crap that I put that man through and how terrible I was and I just feel awful. Hoping with the new insight I can be better and make better choices.
And before all that relationships with me I usually did the ending. I usually picked the worst types of people to be in relationships with. Guys who loved to cheat on me, that were emotionally abusive and the list goes on.