I am fine now

This is one of the reasons i don't like talking, simply because nothing makes sense.
I don't know my thoughts or feelings and go through such dramatic shifts...
Talking just makes me look like a liar or manipulator.
I just am so disconnected that i don't understand either and know how frustrating it must be for other people trying to deal with me.
Thats why i try to keep everyone at a distance and dont let anyone in; that way they dont have to be bothered.

The bad thing is something will probably happen before the day is over to cause me to lose my balance
balance...

I wish that i didn't have to think about these things and that i could just be normal without falling apart upon being triggered