I'm sitting at my desk pretending to work and then my phone rings. I saw that it was him and figured he was cancelling the tomorrow's appointment.

"Hi. I just wanted to see how you are doing today."

What??

We talked about how I feel completely ungrounded-- how I feel as though I am going to through motions and I'm not even connected to myself.

I said to him, "Um, you just called. I didn't leave you a message, but you called."

And he said, "Well, based on talking to you the last couple of days I know how things have been so I wanted to see how you are today. I want you to know that I have been thinking about your situation and that I want to see you tomorrow."

I'm crying in my office because I feel so awful but I do love him very much again. Why does he make it so hard to hate him for extended periods of time?

Damn, I love him.