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Congratulations on 47 days! That's a BIG accomplishment and I hope you know what kind of <u>strength</u> you must have to get so far? It couldn't have been easy ... I've learned that much since coming here ... but you did it!

I'm sorry you're having a difficult day today. My daughter's T does that EMDR with her and, if it's any consulation, the day <u>after</u> her appointment is always the hardest. So far, she's managed to keep from SI. I say "so far" because I've learned enough to know it might not always be the case. All you can do, Colleen, is TRY.

If you TRY, if you do <u>everything</u> you can to keep from SI, that's all anyone can ask of you, Honey. So please TRY? And if you do ... if you've done <u>everything</u> you can to keep from SI ... and IT happens anyway, don't be too hard on yourself. YOU are not a freak! Put the blame in the right place ... on the chemical imbalance in your brain.

Hang on, Colleen. You ARE stronger than today ... you ARE stronger than SI! And remember that tomorrow <u>will</u> be better ... tomorrow always has the potential to be better than today. So just take it one minute at a time, one small step at a time, and TRY.

PM me if you'd like to talk about it? I'm sure not an expert, but I am trying to be a

Good Mama