i have suffered depression for 2o years ive tried meds but give up on them when i'm feeling better, what then happens is then ,i fall back into depression, i really don't understand my behaviour, if i had diabetes i'd take insulin, i want to be well and have a life, but somehow i don't, i'm unsure whether the depression is really cured , and whether the distorted thinking is affecting my behaviour, like this i literally feel i'm losing my mind. i've been diagnosed as having double depression, but what use is it when i want to be well. i am wondering if a referral to a psychiatrist would help, i've done therapy and all sorts of healing i'm at a loss, anyone any ideas? thanks