I get the images too. Mine are mainly suicidal but I have had ones where I am violent toward others. I just got out of IP because the thoughts and images became too overwhelming and I wasn’t sure I could resist anymore. I understand it being impossible to be IP right now since you are the main caregiver but you also need to care for yourself. Don’t let depression fool you into thinking your family would be better off though. I lost both my father and my husband, and I am surely not better off.