Yeah...
I have read about rapid cycling before... and thought maybe that's what it was at one point...
But i dont think it is... because it seems to be psychological...

The reason i was diagnosed with bipolar wasnt so much that i lined up with the diagnosis but because the psychiatrist was an old man that liked the bipolar dx as it was fast and easy label to start prescribing medications...

The people at the clinic have also told me that he liked the bipolar dx...

I am glad he is retired as it didnt seem like he was interested in helping people understand their problems or really helping them cope... he just rx strong meds and sends you out the door fast...

He triggered me alot...

My moods arent on a cycle of any kind... i am empty and i just am...
I present as something and then something can happen to change my presentation...

Its like being all moods all the time but being nothing at the same time and having just an arm pick up a record to play the mood that is the strongest trigger...

I try hard to push forward the mood that i want but i lose strength and shut down i guess
guess, maybe i just have too much bottled up inside of me....

Constantly changing, inconsistent
I need to solidify