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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
I get the images too. Mine are mainly suicidal but I have had ones where I am violent toward others. I just got out of IP because the thoughts and images became too overwhelming and I wasn’t sure I could resist anymore. I understand it being impossible to be IP right now since you are the main caregiver but you also need to care for yourself. Don’t let depression fool you into thinking your family would be better off though. I lost both my father and my husband, and I am surely not better off.
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All of them are about me dying. Whether it involves hurting others or just myself. It's always tied to me dying. I hate it. It is becoming overwhelming. Its like it's becoming stronger. I opened a bottle and help the pills and counted them whilst having one of these thoughts. The whole thing played out in my head like watching a movie with me in it. When it was over I was in the closet holding a handful of pills and the other bottles in a bag. Everything right now feels like too much. There's too much going on in my head. Too many feelings about too much stuff.
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Dx: Bipolar 2, Anxiety disorder, Adjustment disorder with mixed anxious mood.
Medicine: 40mg Latuda, 35mg HydroXYZ
Past Meds: 20mg Latuda, 150mg Seroquel XR, 50mg Topiramate (Trokendi XR), 25mg Vraylar, 25mg buspirone
 You live and you learn 
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