can you go to a GP clinic and get meds that are on the cheap generic list? I don't see this getting better without meds. I know you have no insurance but I see this getting worse on it's own not better. You don't want this to distract you while watching the kids or driving. If your absence can't be handled for a week or two it certainly can't handle you being out of their life for good. You're needed and loved you can't let the depression win.