I wouldn’t go back if they told me not to come back, but that is not what your therapist did. At this point in my life I would not care. I would probably find a therapist or friends to process it with.

From the postings that I have read, you and your therapist are often taking breaks, usually because she has done or said something to hurt you. You can’t speak to her about them, so you leave for a week, a few weeks or month/s. It reminds me of me when I was doing attachment therapy. I wanted my therapist to reach for me, because I couldn’t reach for her. I wasn’t worthy of her caring, her time, her effort - I did not want to impose upon her. Yet, sure as hell, I expected her to anticipate what my needs and wants from her were through my behaviors. This was childhood being reenacted. She tried her best, but many time she failed. Also, because I was doing a type of corrective attachment therapy with her, she spent more time on my case than all her other cases. Luckily, I agreed with her that I would not cancel an appointment without having another appointment on the books.

Most everyone has told you to Move On. I have no advice for you. I do encourage you to go back to read your postings and your journal if you keep one to see if you can find your patterns (reactions to her), and maybe bring them to her to see what you both can work out or you with someone else. Good luck to you.

My two bits only.