Hi Spidytolerate, it sounds like, by what you said, that you think you shouldn't feel the way you feel (desiring a partner who loves you, craving intimacy, respect, adoration). I got this from when you said "I don't know why, but I crave this so much." I might be wrong about my interpretation. But I hope you know that it's ok to want these things and its incredibly natural and human of you.

The fact that he is not returning your love and affection, and you feel stuck. Why do you feel stuck? Why do you want to stay with this person? I hope you do what you feel is best. I don't know if you will like it but I can tell you I think you'd be better off alone than with someone who doesn't see your worth. Learn to see your own worth. It is a long road. Date other people. It's a hard thing to do, it sounds like, for you. I wish you peace and returned love. I hope you keep posting.