Being free from others critics existant or imagined is hard for me.

Even on this forum, it is suposed to be a safe place. But I find myself imagining what others are thinking about me when I say something more revealing... I try to write some sort of joke and my head jumps to what the reactions might be...
I see a community thread and I wonder if people don't like me or if they want me out of it.

I know the problem is in my thinking pattern, but is so ingrained. Being told that I am accepted probably wouldn't change anything.

It's just exhausting and I wish I knew how to turn it of.