I ordered the court recording from my husband's sentencing hearing and listened to everything but me speaking. I had no idea how much emotional stuff was going to come up by listening to this. Shame, guilt, grief, anger. I also just now came to the realization that we could have died that night. I hope that last sentence doesn't sound stupid. Maybe I'm overreacting.

I was at work and couldn't stop crying and had to leave early. This was not the week, apparently, to step down from three sessions to two. I've emailed the T asking him to please let me come for my normal third session. I hope I can.